• Posted on June 15, 2009 at 7:19 pm

emotional whining

My emotional state of being has been somewhat more precarious the last few days or week or so. And I hate it. I hate the feeling of emotional instability, the being on the verge of tears for no real discernable reason. Frak. This does not please me one bit. I’ve suffered with both depression and anxiety before, so I know what it’s all about. I think the Rocky reunion is making me feel nostalgic and that is both a good and a bad thing. Those were interesting, crazy, fun, wild times. But there was always one constant, the friend at my side. She’s no longer a part of my life, for reasons that are mostly my fault, and it is one of the biggest regrets of my life. I miss her. Constantly. I miss the kids. I miss having her as a part of my life. Sometimes it really does make me want to cry. I think though, that this week it’s been more about my physical health and the fact that I freaking hurt all the time. It’s just a matter of how much and where. Feh.

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